It has dawned on me recently that the one or few things that many of us say we stand for, could possibly be the one or few things we are the guiltiest of committing.
Recently, I have been able to really empathize with many of you young people that have to sit back and watch adults do the very things they insist are wrong, immoral, dishonest, unsafe, irresponsible and cruel. I am gaining a new found respect for the adolescence trying to grow and learn in an environment where you are told, “Do what I say not as I do and turn your head the other way and close your mouth.” Plain and simply, “DON’T, WHATEVER YOU DO, DO NOT ROCK THE BOAT!”
I am also challenging myself to examine what areas in my life I am willing to take that approach to life and change it. It really seems to be the “comfortable” route or the “path of least resistance” or neglectfully, the irresponsible route and as I have become aware of this syndrome so I wish to actively change it in my life.
The more I think about it, the more I can see just how much I am guilty of this syndrome. I feel badly that I say one thing and do another and I realize just how confusing that is for my own children who are trying to grow and learn. What a bunch of mixed signals?!?!?! How can I tell them no Kool-Aid at dinner and crack open a diet coke with mine!?!?!?
I have two pleas. One is to the adults, stop the insanity! Stop the it’s ok for me but not you, the shove it under the rug and pretend it’s not happening and second to the adolescence, examine your thoughts, words and actions on a regular basis and be sure they align. It’s hard to trust a source that advertises one product but sells you another. Be the best quality advertiser and product you can be at all times, even if it does mean you have to get uncomfortable. Life gets uncomfortable sometimes but if you can walk the walk you are trying to sell to your neighbors and community, not only does it feel better but it’s much easier to set positive examples for the generations around you!

Blessed be

Today I joined AzPA, which is the Arizona Psychological Association. I also decided to start taking part in a lab for my entire senior year. Taking part in these activities while being in school is one of the most beneficial things I can be doing with my life at this current time. I am attempting to take advantage of anything and everything that comes my way and will better my future. I still have dreams, even though I have accomplished so many of them. It often feels as if I don’t have enough time to do all of the things I want to do. I am almost 25 years old, which mean that I have been alive for almost a quarter century and that I spent a little over a quarter of my life wasting my time with drugs and crime. The next part of my life is not dedicated to making up for my past mistakes, but instead making new mistakes and learning from those. The difference is that the mistakes I will make are simply that: mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes and it is those who learn from their mistakes that flourish in life. I plan on learning from all of the mistakes I will make in the future, because I have already learned so much from my past mistakes and even the more recent ones I have made. This is what also plays a vital role in my moving up in the world, because I am not allowing myself to stay stagnant in one position for any lengthy period of time. As I said earlier there are too many things to do and experience and it seems as if there is just not enough time to do it all. I am getting older and wiser, yet stressing out over life even more. It is as if I am having a quarter century crisis. Lately I have been thinking about how badly I want kids and how tough it is to realize that I can’t afford to have kids right now and I don’t have the time to be the loving mother I will one day be. I am being hit from every corner about my future and what I am doing with my life. How do I manage to stay sane half of the time? The only answer I have to that question is that I do my very best at living every day one day at a time and not focusing on my past or too much on my future. Life is often quite complex, yet at other times it is so simple. The ever changing existence I have will cease to amaze me.

Today I joined AzPA, which is the Arizona Psychological Association. I also decided to start taking part in a lab for my entire senior year. Taking part in these activities while being in school is one of the most beneficial things I can be doing with my life at this current time. I am attempting to take advantage of anything and everything that comes my way and will better my future. I still have dreams, even though I have accomplished so many of them. It often feels as if I don’t have enough time to do all of the things I want to do. I am almost 25 years old, which mean that I have been alive for almost a quarter century and that I spent a little over a quarter of my life wasting my time with drugs and crime. The next part of my life is not dedicated to making up for my past mistakes, but instead making new mistakes and learning from those. The difference is that the mistakes I will make are simply that: mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes and it is those who learn from their mistakes that flourish in life. I plan on learning from all of the mistakes I will make in the future, because I have already learned so much from my past mistakes and even the more recent ones I have made. This is what also plays a vital role in my moving up in the world, because I am not allowing myself to stay stagnant in one position for any lengthy period of time. As I said earlier there are too many things to do and experience and it seems as if there is just not enough time to do it all. I am getting older and wiser, yet stressing out over life even more. It is as if I am having a quarter century crisis. Lately I have been thinking about how badly I want kids and how tough it is to realize that I can’t afford to have kids right now and I don’t have the time to be the loving mother I will one day be. I am being hit from every corner about my future and what I am doing with my life. How do I manage to stay sane half of the time? The only answer I have to that question is that I do my very best at living every day one day at a time and not focusing on my past or too much on my future. Life is often quite complex, yet at other times it is so simple. The ever changing existence I have will cease to amaze me.